polluted mind

this is super junior and k-pop related.

2012-01-12T00:58:00.007+08:00

슈퍼주니어 최고! 슈퍼주니어 대상!

I'M SERIOUSLY PROUD OF THEM.

THEY WON DAESANG, PEOPLE. FRIKKIN DAESANG AWARD!

I PRACTICALLY SPENT ALL MY MONEY ON THEM AND IT WORTH IT.

JUST TO SEE THEM SMILING.

축하 해요 우리 오빠들!!!

Let's not forget ELF who work hard for them to win

PEARL SAPPHIRE BLUE 짱!! 엘프 짱!

P/S: FOR MORE PICTURES YOU CAN GO TO MY TUMBLR.

Let's not get despair, Farah

2012-01-04T03:50:00.003+08:00

Let's not get despair, Farah.

Let's not.

فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا

( So verily, with the hardship, there is relief,)

إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا

(Verily, with the hardship, there is relief ).

bye 2011, hello 2012

2011-12-31T01:54:00.002+08:00

Today is 31st Dec 2011. The last day of 2011.

I went through so many hardship during this year. I learn so many things. No No. It ain't engineering related but more to life related. How to stand up again when you fall, how to be strong, how to not give up when you think everything is falling apart. There was some point I was so depressed that I almost, almost, wanted to give up everything, stop studying and all. I still remember how depressed I was at that time, I started to isolate myself from everyone because I feel so useless. Alhamdulillah, Allah showed me the way and give me strength to move on. I made a decision which changes my whole life as a student. It changes the whole thing but I can't regret. I can't. It is what I choose, I have to take responsibility for every action I made, right? After all that happened to me, I come to a conclusion that I'm a secretive person. I keep too many secrets from everyone. I keep everything all by myself , it accumulated, and I exploded. It isn't a good thing but I don't believe in telling people my problems. So many times, too many times, I thought they cared for me, in the end, nahhh.....

This year, I lost a very important person in my life, my grandpa. It's been months since he passed away yet sometime I still cry myself to sleep because I just miss him too much. He was like a father to me. We had so many good memories together, it make things more complicated. I can't express how much I miss you, atok. May Allah bless your soul.

Last but not least, let's end 2011 with a good ending, shall we? I apologize for any mistakes I've done, intentionally or unintentionally. To my friends, I think I need to say this, I'm sorry for running away. I admit I'm running away from some people which I can't explain the reason why. I'm sorry. I'm a totally new person. I'm no longer a friendly, happy go lucky girl. I'm a secretive, quiet and bipolar girl. If you can't be happy with what I am, I'm sorry but I will definitely distance myself from you regardless of who you are. I suffered too much I want to be happy but you don't like it so running away myself from you is the best solution.

P/S : If I can conclude my 2011 with a song, it will be The Climb by Miley Cyrus ^__^

i think i am ....

2011-12-30T20:21:00.003+08:00

I think something is wrong with me. Am I sick?

P/S: Today I had GEN exam. It was tough I tell you. Sigh. All I can do is pray right now.

final is coming

2011-12-27T00:47:00.001+08:00

LET'S ACE IT, FARAH.

MAY ALLAH HELP YOU IN YOUR EXAM. AMEN.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, Eunhyuk

2011-11-01T13:40:00.002+08:00

I couldn't hide my disappointment after I read this article.

http://en.korea.com/blog/enter/tv/super-juniors-eunhyuk-im-the-least-cute-in-super-junior-so-stressed/

I watched Strong Heart with Super Junior and I think the other members were just joking when they said Eunhyuk is this and that but .... I still think it was a bit too much?

And after reading that article, I seriously think it has effected Eunhyuk. It somehow makes Eunhyuk feel inferior about his appearance.

I don't know. I hate it when Hyukjae says he is the most unattractive or whatever.

As for me, each person has their own attractions and for Hyukjae, he has the most beautiful heart. He is so kind and loving.

We don't need prove, do we? We all know he is kind if you watched Explore Human Body (one of Super Junior Reality TV Shows).

We have plastic surgery to fix people's appearance but we don't have anything to fix people's heart to become more beautiful.

Beauty will fade away as we grow older but not kindness.

Beauty belongs to the eyes of the beholder. If other people thinks he is least cute, doesn't mean that everyone in the world will think he is least cute too. I personally think he is so cute and good looking but what I say will become pointless to certain people because I am Eunhyuk biased. Of course I'll be saying my biased is good looking,right?

I wish I can tell Eunhyuk how good looking he is. I wish I can tell him he is the most kind and loving human being in the world and most importantly, I want to tell him to love himself just as much as I love him.

Let's show to Eunhyuk that he is 'cute' and 'attractive' .

erasing you from my friends list because i'm so tired

2011-09-04T01:35:00.003+08:00

I can see I did a lot of rantings in my past posts but I couldn't help it.

You know what, I'm just sick of some people who are so insensitive about other people's feeling. Don't f*cking tell me you are just kidding because I've had enough of it!

First you are talking about my appearance and now you are comparing me? OMG. How angel you can be, my dear? I'm so damn sorry because I'm not as pretty as our other friends. I'm sorry if you are embarrassed to have me as your friends. Really I am. I know I am not gorgeous, not fabulous and I'm not even close to beautiful. You don't even think of my feeling when you do that, do you? Maybe you do. I bet you are too dense then because if you are not, then you won't talk to me like that like I'm some kind of ugly doll on display which waiting to be insulted. I might be laughing and smiling but my heart is crying and breaking and I'm the only who knows and feels everything. Thank you so much for 'respecting' me, 'FRIENDS' .

Last but not least, I am so disappointed and I don't lie when I say I'm crying over this issue again and again. About me and KPOP. I can see people updating their status on facebook saying 'people like me' is like a sinner, we forget our God etc. You even categorize 'people like me'. What 'people like me'? People who likes KPOP? Do you have fun mocking me in your status? Do you? If you do, I'm glad then. Really,guys, how insensitive you can be? Don't tell me it's not for me, it's for all, because I would be stupid if I don't know you are talking about me. If I write here what some people have written on their facebook I think it would tell right away who wrote those, wouldn't it? No, I don't have any intentions to embarrassed anyone neither make them hate me. It's enough me alone getting hurt. I don't lie when I say I cried so many times over this. People can't just accept, respect and be happy with me and my liking. I'm tired of this. Really I do.

now u can judge me

2011-07-25T01:04:00.003+08:00

Actually I wanted to post this on my LiveJournal but I can't since I've posted all my ranting and dissatisfaction there. I couldn't have 2 posts on the same day.

OK. What I wanted to post here is some interesting personality test I took online.

This is so interesting. I got this from my dongsaeng in LiveJournal.

What surprised me the most was, most of it are true.

Let me post it here. Hehe

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Seriously this test surprised me. Most of it are true. Oh-hoh.

You can try it here !

Now you know me you can judge me. L O L s

can you accept me as who I am ; can you stop comparing me to others

2011-07-01T22:02:00.003+08:00

This post is for someone.

I really want her to read this but somehow I know she won't.Why? Because she doesn't care about me. I'm letting out everything I feel for a long time.

What do you see in me? I feel so small in your eyes. I feel inferior because of you.

Why do you treat her and me differently? I don't think I'm much different from her. Why? If you can give me one good answer I'll let you be.

You can sit for good hours with her and talking but you barely look into my eyes when I talk to you.

I can't remember if we ever sit around and have a nice talk together. You will only reach me when you are facing problems and when you want to let out your anger.

Can you accept me as who I am? I have my own preferences and she has her own.Doesn't mean when her liking is close to your's you can despise me. God! It makes me sad even more when I think about this. If you don't approve what I like can you just keep your mouth shut? No I won't ask you to respect me.I won't.Because you will never do but let's practice "If you don't like it, then leave and shut up" . Stop complaining and most importantly don't mock me and my preferences in front of other people. I don't know what your real intention is, I think you want to humiliate me.Tell you what, Congratulations! You have succeeded. I feel humiliated and small. Thanks to you.

Here, let me tell you something about me so I expect you can be more understanding.

I like to isolate myself from other people
I prefer my butt glued to chair in my room rather than gossiping outside.
I keep my mouth shut if I don't have anything to say
I won't let out my anger but I show my anger to everyone. I can't restrain myself when I'm angry but lucky I never let out my anger with yelling,screaming.Like I said, I will show my anger and you can see it on my face.
I won't start a conversation if I think you won't show interest in what I'm talking so don't get offended when I'm talking sweetly with other while I don't do the same thing to you

Stop comparing me to others! Please stop. You don't know how much I feel like breaking down in front of other people when you start comparing me. You don't know how worse I felt. You see me everyday, you are basically living with me, that's why you can see all my flaws. You don't expect me to fold everything, do you? Other people has their own flaws too, it's just you don't see it. So stop saying "you should be like her" , "ahh.she is useless." , "bukannya boleh harap sangat dia nie". I feel worse.Really, I do.

Ahh.I'm complaining to much, aren't I? I'm sorry but I don't think I can't keep all this by myself. I need to let it out. Once again, I practice "If you don't like it, then leave and shut up" . Don't leave me comments with intention to anger me.

P/S : I don't mean to offend anyone. I want to let out everything I feel inside.I'm sorry if you feel offended but imagine you are in my shoes then you will know why I wrote all these.

i am not stupid to commit suicide

2011-04-27T11:32:00.004+08:00

I wanted to write this entry since last Sunday but I have to think about it carefully before I can spill it. Yet now I don't think I have to write about it because there are awesome people who already wrote regarding this issue.

There was an entry in Malay newspaper last Sunday titled 'Beware of K-Pop fans'. K-Pop community was in rage because of that article. Reasons stated of why people should beware of K-Pop fans are lead to violence and suicide, too much money spent, and effects on Malaysian music industry.

Truthfully I was mad. I am seriously mad. Why people always picked on us, K-pop community? Did we do something wrong? Are we the weird one because we involved in K-Pop? I don't know. Sometimes I am sick of it but I manage to handle it because of ELF (yes I am an ELF) and K-Pop community are with me.

So I am gonna link you guys to some awesome people who wrote regarding this and so you will know some positive things about K-Pop.

First one wrote by Natasha Iman :)

and

second one wrote by Hazirah ^__^

Happy reading. They are awesome people with awesome articles!

^____^

A letter to my mom

2011-04-22T00:44:00.004+08:00

To my mom,

Thank you for everything you have done for me.

I cherish everything. I cherish the very special bond we have. I am so glad to have you in my life.

Your loving presence in my life gives me a reassuring feeling of security and peace. Without you, there would be a gaping hole in my life, an emptiness that only your love can fill.

You gave your all to raise me right. You went through so much difficulties to give the best for

me.

You are extraordinary. Washing, cleaning and cooking, plus ironing and grocery shopping, these chores are bone breaking. I know :)

If someone ask me to list everything you have done for me, I am sure I can't list it because you have done too much I can't remember.

I owe it all to you.

You mean so much to me. I pray everyday to Allah to help you see how much you mean to me. I honor you.

I promise you I will take care of you in your old days, I'll make you the happiest mother everyday.

Yet, if Allah decides to take me away from you before I can fulfill it, I hope Allah will looks after you right and keep you safe from harm.

May your life be filled with happiness. So much love from me,

your daughter.

i don't know i can write

2011-04-19T02:18:00.002+08:00

Damn!

I really miss blogging!

I reread my previous entries 2 years back and I was like oh-i-can-write-long-articles. Hahaha.

Funny how my life has completely change now.

Well I should active in writing back.

Where has the sanity gone?

2011-01-23T02:10:00.004+08:00

I am somehow annoyed!

Where has the sanity gone?

Don't you have any ashamed?

You are not yet husband and wife but acting like one.

What are u thinking people?

Do you really forget your Creator?

Do you forget there is Judgement Day?

Someone just answer me, where has the sanity gone?

And my big question is,

Why people keep abandoning children?

Can I call this drabbles of my 2010 and 2011?

2010-12-31T23:12:00.004+08:00

2010 is going to leave me soon.

Well I can say so many things happened to me.

2011 is coming nearer.

Well I can say I welcome you with all my heart and I hope 2011 will be better than 2010.

Dream,

yes. Everything start with a dream. Small dream, silly dream, it is still a dream. We can make it come true. But,

let's stop dreaming now and start WORKING on it.

Success,

it is never impossible but it needs a lot of sacrifices.

You have to go through so many things before you can succeed.

Failure,

it's part of our lives. We can't run away from it. Neither do I.

Let's be positive ^__^

Family,

MY PRECIOUS ONE! I WOULD DIE FOR THEM.NOTHING WILL CHANGE. EACH AND EVERY YEAR THEY ARE STILL MY PRECIOUS ONE. MY BIG FAMILY :)

Friends,

I value them so much. I throw my tantrum at them, I rant to them how miserable life is, I blabbing the same thing to them every day, they would still listen to me, they will still say 'I love you' .

I cry when they say 'I want you to be happy' .

I'm so glad that I made so many new friends this year.

These 3 words maybe banality words to you but I mean it.

'I LOVE YOU' so much my friends.. ^_^

2011, I welcome you! I hope I will be better and I hope 2011 is MY year. Aminn...

2010-12-18T00:49:00.002+08:00

Mr Bloggie!!

I miss you. Haha.

This week was so so so so tiring! Seriously. Add/ drop session.

Have to add 4 subjects manually.

And guess what

I HAVE CLASS ON FRIDAY EVENING!!! TILL 5!! =((

#sorrysuperjunior

2010-12-09T21:25:00.003+08:00

I don't know why but I feel sad for them.

Really sad.

I think I've been a fan to them.

I am sorry!

Unfold

2010-12-08T22:01:00.004+08:00

Posting Unfold by Marie Digby.

I don't post this for fun. If you ponder the lyrics you will know what I am trying to say.

Marie Digby - Unfold

What I can remember

Is a lot like water

Trickling down a page

Of the most beautiful colors

I can't quite put my finger down

On the moment that I became like this

You see, I'm the bravest girl

You'll ever come to meet

Yet, I shrink down to nothing

At the thought of someone really seeing me

I think my heart is wrapped around

And tangled up in winding weeds

But, I don't wanna go on living

Being so afraid of showing

Someone else my imperfections

And even though my feet are trembling

Every word I say comes stumbling

I will bare it all

Watch me unfold

Unfold, unfold

These hands that I hold behide my back

Are bound and broken from my own doing

And I can't feel anything anymore

I need a touch to remind me

I'm still real

'Cause, I don't wanna go on living

Being so afraid of showing

Someone else my imperfections

And even though my feet are trembling

Every word I say comes stumbling

I will bare it all

Watch me unfold

Unfold, unfold

My soul

It's dying to be free

I can't live the rest of my life so guarded

It's dying to be free

It's up to me to choose

What kind of life I lead

'Cause, I don't wanna go on living

Being so afraid of showing

Someone else my imperfections

And even though my feet are trembling

Every word I say comes stumbling

I will bare it all

Watch me unfold, unfold, unfold

I cried really hard for this past few days. I want to tell the whole world how imperfect I am but I'm scared. Really scared.

20 Random Facts About Me

2010-12-08T13:28:00.002+08:00

Wooottt! hehe

I stole this post from

I suddenly have the urge to do this so here I am posting this in order for you to know me better.

1. My name is Farah. F-A-R-A-H. I HATE PEOPLE CALLING ME PAIN OR WHATEVER! Deal with it. Call me Farah. I love my name so much :)

2. I am friendly. I mean real friendly but I don't talk a lot. I talk only to people who has same interest with me.

3. I eat a lot. Huhu. I love eating so much.

4. I like to try new things. I want to master everything. Well for now, I can play acoustic, I can speak Korean language, I can do some editing using Photoshop, photography and the list go on. Yes. I'd like to try everything while I'm still breathing! I want to be a multi-talented person.

5. I love Zoo! Seriously. I don't know why. Even though I am freaking 21 years old, I still love going to Zoo. When someone ask me to go to zoo with them I'll basically jumping like a retard. Hahaha

6. I have my earphone on 24/7 with me. Yes! 24/7. I told you I don't talk a lot but I will turn it off when people is talking to me. I still know when to turn it on and when to turn it off :)

7. I love shopping. I am a girl afterall. hehe. But lately i'm so into online shopping because I found out online shopping is much saver. Seriously. I found a T shirt at shopping mall cost RM 80 but when I search it online it only cost me RM 37 INCLUDED SHIPPING COST!

8. I LOOVVEE reading. I'm a book worm but I'm not nerdy.

9. I love music. My world revolves around music. I need music everday, everytime.

10. I told u I'm a music lover but what kind of genre you may ask. I listen to all genre EXCEPT metal,hard core n those heavy songs. It gives me headache! :( But, genre I listen the most are KPOP and oldies! ^^

11. I am obviously KPOP lovers. I am an ELF. I'm proud to be an ELF. XD

12. I SHIP EUNHAE!!! lalalala. hehe. My first bias is Donghae. I love him 1% more than Eunhyuk. Only 1% different. Not much. Hehe. Adn ofcourse my second bias goes to Eunhyuk and third bias is Kyuhyun. He has the most soothing voice ever!

13. I love forum-ing. I love making new friends! For ELF, you can definitely find me in certain fan base, forum,community or fan cafe. ^^

14. I am addicted to HaeHyuk/EunHae fan fic. ^^

15. My biggest fear is failure. I know people learn from failure but it is still hard for me to accept it.

16. I can bake. I like baking. Blueberry cheese tart,chocolate cake! :)

17. I can't live with out my laptop and my camera. This 2 things have to be with me everywhere I go.

18. When I am pissed at someone, I won't speak it out. I keep it to myself or maybe I spill it out on my blog.

19. I can laugh and cry so damn easily. So don't be surprised to find me laughing and the next 10 second I'm crying or vice versa. ^^

20. I value people around me so much. Seriously. My family, my best friends and ELF. These 3 are so important in my life. (Super Junior is included in ELF ^^)

Ok well. Let me stop rambling for now. Hehe.

2010-12-08T00:14:00.002+08:00

OK.

I SHALL POST MY PROBLEM TOMORROW BECAUSE THERE ARE 2 REAL MONSTER IS PISSING ME OFF.

I SHALL NOT POST IT TODAY OTHERWISE MY POST WILL BE AFFECTED WITH MY EMOTION.

p/s: I am really starting blogging again. I found that blogging makes me happy.

I Miss you

2010-12-07T23:01:00.002+08:00

Dear Mr Blog,

I miss you so much!!

I have problems right now.

I sound like a bad friend right??

I only remember you when I need you.

Yeah I know. I can see that comment coming to me from you.

But aren't you glad I remember you?

p/s : OK.I know I'm rambling but hey! This is my blog! I can write whatever I want.

I shall post my real problem in the next post.

Update , Icon, Banner, Poster

2010-10-25T00:12:00.008+08:00

OMG!!!

I miss blogging so much!

I should blame KPOP for this. hehe. Just joking! :)

Ahh well, yes I am a fangirl. My hobby is fangirling! hehehe.

Erm what should I update?

Oh right, I think I'm going to post some of my artworks. If u can call that art. Haha.

I'm a beginner so I hope you can be easy on me ;)

For this icon,I only play with curves and coloring and also add some textures.

This is my FIRST banner or should I call it poster for my friend's fan fiction. I'm so nervous. I hope she will likes it. (Her story is so great!! Eonsired, you are the best writer!)

Heenim. This banner os for my friend's birthday. She said she likes it. Well, I'm so grateful then :) (The URL! X0)

OK. The last one! Mr Fishy! hehe. This is so simple yet I like it very much!! I love polaroid in case you don't know. Hehe

Please no HOTLINKING!!! If you want it, request from me and I will give it to you. I can make you one too if you want. Actually there are more but I'll only put these pictures for a mean time. Will update more :) And I guess, you know already my favourite KPOP band. hehe

Current Issue

2010-06-03T22:25:00.003+08:00

Hye people. It's been 6 months since I wrote in my blog. Many things happened and many things have changed. I decide to become an active writer back.

Straight to the main point.

Everyone is talking about this issue. I'm glad to see how everyone care about this. I guess everyone noticed that most of your friends in 'Muka Buku' have changed their profile pictures. They put pictures of that country (u know what country I'm talking about) flag in order to show how much they support them. It's ok then. Yet, I don't change my profile picture to that country flag and I was seriously pissed off because people said that I'm being ignorant just because I don't change my profile picture. What the?????
Do you think I'm that cruel to ignore this matter?! I'll do it my way. I don't have to do it the way you guys did. The best I can do is pray for them after my prayer but do I really have to mention it in 'Muka Buku' each time I pray for them? Think about it. I am Muslim. Of course I care for them but it doesn't make sense you said that I am ignorant because I don't change my profile picture. Mind you, I'll do it my way. I don't have to go with majority if I don't want to so just back off and live your own life as you planned.

Update Update

2010-01-25T16:32:00.002+08:00

I really hope I have more time to update my blog. I miss my blog so badly. I haven't update like ages. :(
I'll try to update as much as I can before I go back to UIA this Sunday. I don't update this blog for anyone.
P/S : I just want to update this blog for me, my family and my Nad and Fina who regularly visit my blog.

2009, 2010

2010-01-02T18:24:00.003+08:00

Bye 2009
Thank you for such unforgetable memories.
I cried, I laughed, I stumbled but I moved on.
Thank you. Bye 2009. Bye my love.
I'm gonna find the new one in 2010.

Welcome 2010.
Fill me with contentment and bliss.
Fill me with great victory.
Aminn =)

Exam & Result

2009-12-03T19:30:00.003+08:00

I am so glad I've finished my first semester in IIUM. Man. For me to survive, to go through everything, to face my mid semester results and quizzes, to finish all of my assignments, it is not easy. Seriously. It was soo tough. Yet, I'm glad everything is done now. Alhamdulillah.
I hope I'll be better next semester.

P/S: Trillions of thanks to my mum for everything, my beloved Mak Long for being so understanding, giving me hopes, hearing my problems and supporting me while I was put in hard times and my other family members and close friends who always giving me nice words to go through everything. Thank you.
My result? Ahah! I won't mention. It is enough for me to say I pass with a flying colours. Alhamdulillah =))
Congrats to Fina, Nadiah, Zaaim and others too. We did our best. :)

Nasyid

2009-10-31T21:01:00.003+08:00

There was one day my friend told me this, “Lagu nasyid tak sepatutnya pasal cinta. I meant lagu nasyid must be lagu nasyid la, kenapa plak nak pasal cinta.” Let’s make it easy. Actually I am not really agreed with her. In life, we cannot run from love. It is a common and normal feeling. A person without love is abnormal. For me love is a fitrah. If a person doesn’t have love means Allah has taken back His greatest nikmat from that particular person. If you read Tentang Cinta by Pahrol Md Joui, he explains everything about love clearly in his book. He said nothing is wrong with love. The wrong is the way we show our love. Everyone is exposed that couple is common among youngsters nowadays. And if you noticed, there were so many cases happened between youngsters because of love. Some people committed suicide because of her/his lover turn his/her love down. How stupid. Some people committed zina just to prove her/his love to his/her lover. Again, how stupid. Some people killed other people because of their lovers. These were some of cases about lovers. Yet, there are other things that most of the people don’t realize. Lovers holding hands, sms-ing 24/7, spend all money just to satisfy his/her lovers, it is all wrong. This is what Pahrol Md Joui means in his book. Back to my main point, nasyid’s song. I think what the nasyidians are doing with love songs are correct. If we go deeper into the lyrics, we’ll find out that they telling us it’s nothing wrong with love but there are things we shouldn’t do because Allah forbid us to do so.

Dan jangan pula kerana bercinta kita pun leka entah kemana.
dan jangan pula kerana bercinta tergadai semua maruah agama.
Cinta yang sejati hanya cintakan Ilahi
Cinta ayah bonda tulus suci selamanya
Cinta sesama insan suburkan dengan ketqwaan.

Taken from Kerana Cinta by InTeam featuring Mestica

See people, this song remind us do not fall into laxity just because of love. It’s not wrong to love the opposite sex but be sure we are not doing what Allah has strictly forbid us to do. 3 lines below remind us to love who we are supposed to love first. The problem with our youngsters today is they forgot to love their Creator and their parents. Let’s us not forget to love Allah and our parents before we love someone else because Allah’s love will give us an eternal bliss and goodness and parents’ love will bring us to heaven. There are so many nasyid’s songs which I think good for us to ponder. Go through the lyrics first and get the hidden meaning. Nasyid is still nasyid after all. It’s about songs and educating. =) This is my opinion. You may not agree with me as you have different opinion.

P/S: I'm having my final right now. Please pray for my success everyone. Ameen =)

The worst weekend!

2009-10-11T11:14:00.002+08:00

Where should I start? I don't know. It should be a happy ending but it end up with nightmare!
I love her. I love her so much but why I end up with crying? Does she know anything about me? What I feel, what I've been through at UIA? I'm in pain. I'm in pain. I'm in pain. I'm in pain. This is the worst weekend ever!

Come Home - OneRepublic

2009-09-25T23:21:00.004+08:00

This song is sooo beautiful. It is so hard to fine song like this nowadays.. 'Come home' explain everything I feel inside =((

[Verse 1]

Hello world

Hope you're listening

Forgive me if I’m young

For speaking out of turn

There’s someone I’ve been missing

I think that they could be

The better half of me

They’re in their own place trying to make it right

But I’m tired of justifying

So i say you’ll..

[Chorus]

Come home

Cause I’ve been waiting for you

For so long

And right now there's a war between the vanities

But all i see is you and me

The fight for you is all I’ve ever known

So come home

Oooh

[Verse 2]

I get lost in the beauty

Of everything i see

The world ain’t as half as bad

As they paint it to be

If all the sons

If all the daughters

Stopped to take it in

Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin

It might start now..

Yeahh

Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud

Until then

[Chorus]

Come home

Cause I’ve been waiting for you

For so long

And right now there's a war between the vanities

But all i see is you and me

The fight for you is all I’ve ever known

Ever known

So come home

Oooh

[Interlude]

Everything i can’t be

Is everything you should be

And that’s why i need you here

Everything i can’t be

Is everything you should be

And that’s why i need you here

So hear this now

[Chorus]

Come home

Cause I’ve been waiting for you

For so long

And right now there's a war between the vanities

But all i see is you and me

The fight for you is all I’ve ever known

Ever known

So come home

Come home

p/s: I miss Hanifuzzaim. I miss him. I miss him. And now, I'm gonna miss more people. =((

Eid '09 friends

2009-09-25T12:19:00.003+08:00

No need for an introduction or longgg explainations. Pictures will explain everything. =))

4 hantu raya plus Syaheerah and me

From left : Faiq, Rafii, Syaheerah, Asri and Deen.

Guys from left: Asri, Syahir, Rafii, Deen

Them. =)

p/s: Bye2 Syahir. Live your life well =)

2009-09-14T17:20:00.002+08:00

5 days left before 1st Syawal. Oh. I love Ramadhan. Why you leave me so fast? ='(

Time

2009-08-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, we are already in Ramadhan month for a week. This is my first time celebrating ramadhan at Gombak. Well I can say it is not as merry as in PJ. I have class from 8.30am to 6pm. After 6pm then I go back to my mahallah. Exhausted, you know. It takes at least 10 minutes for me to arrive my mahallah. There is a bazaar in Gombak but it is located near to Kuliyyah of Economics which is far far far away from my kuliyyah and mahallah and i never been to that bazaar due to my busy-ness. *Sigh*
OK. That was not my point for this entry. There is other point. I would like to stress on time. Yes, time. For Muslim scholars, I know they are so familiar with surah Al-Asr.

1. By Al-'Asr (the time).
2. Verily! Man is in loss,
3. Except those who believe (in Islâmic Monotheism) and do righteous good deeds, and recommend one another to the truth (i.e. order one another to perform all kinds of good deeds (Al-Ma'rûf)which Allâh has ordained, and abstain from all kinds of sins and evil deeds (Al-Munkar)which Allâh has forbidden), and recommend one another to patience (for the sufferings, harms, and injuries which one may encounter in Allâh's Cause during preaching His religion of Islâmic Monotheism or Jihâd, etc.).

People nowadays doesn't know how to appreciate time and most important is they don't know how to manage their time wisely. Why I say this? Because of I'm sick of waiting. I value my free time. I have so many things to be done etc. I plan everything, at this time I will do this, at that time I will do that. So if you make me waiting for let say one hour, I wasted my precious one hour just like that. If I ask you to wait at 1.40pm, be there on time. If you come late, I may be coming late for my class. If you want me to help you for your assignment, come earlier. Don't come to me at 1 or 2 am because it's time for me to go to bed, and if I sleep late I can't wake up for my sahur and and I will lose focus in class because I'm sleepy. Get me?

Other than that, I would like to stress here, THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH GOING BACK HOME EVERY WEEK. At least I'll make sure I finished all my assignments before I go back. Like I said earlier, I value my time, my time with my family. I would like to spend much time with them while I still have time or they still have their time. We never know what will happen. Plus, if you refer the surah above, man is in loss except those who do good deeds. Good deeds. I know, we as a student need some time to hang out with friends or maybe do some lepak-ing to release our tension because I did the same things too once in a while but if we do it oftenly, how should I consider your activity? Good deeds or worthless activity?

Oh one more which I forgot to mention above, if my class start at 2pm I usually arrive at class at 1.50pm and if I have class at 8.30pm, I make sure myself to be in class at 8.20am. So if you want to go to class with me don't late. Once again I stress here, I value my time.

Ahlan Ya Ramadhan

2009-08-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

Ahlan Ya Ramadhan
Ahlan Ya Ramadhan
Ahlan Ya Ramadhan

Semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna buat diriku yang sentiasa mengharapkan keampunan daripadaNya.

2009-08-15T02:15:00.002+08:00

It takes 50 years to build a country but it takes only 5 hours to destroy a country.

-Biro TataNegara-

p/s: My grandfather loves history. I learn so many things from him :)

2009-08-15T01:51:00.002+08:00

Please trust me when I say I am busy. I am not lying. I will call you when I have time. I promise. I won't forget you, ok? Wink2 ;-) I miss you too.

Announcement

2009-08-10T21:45:00.003+08:00

I'm closing my blog for a month. Maybe. Be back soon.

Happy 20th Birthday

2009-08-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Allah I'm still alive till now. He still gives me chances to improve my ibadah, to seek knowledge. Alhamdulillah. 20 years living in this world taught me a lot of things. I've gone through so many things, laughter, sadness, joyness, pain, everything. I managed to get through all this and of course with His help, family and REAL friends.Alhamdulillah I'm still given hidayah to worship Him, and to be in Islam. This is what I am most gratitude. Without Islam my life would be up side down. Islam gives me peace inside and out.Family. Nothing more I can explain about my family. I LOVE MY FAMILY VERY MUCH. I wouldn't exchange my family with anything. No way! They are too worth to be exchange.Real friends. This is the most tough one. There was one day I decided to live my life without friends. I gave up in maintaining relationship with my friends. It's tough to keep them happy and satisfied but my mum said I still need friends. And after 20 years I try settling down with my friends problem, I found out who is my truly friends. The first one of course is my mum, my RYUNK(the best thing happened to me) and the list goes on but I can tell you, you can count them with your hands. You got what I meant? Hehe.
Last but not least, Happy 20th birthday , Farah. May you always be a happy and successful girl. Aminn!!

Hari Jadi yang sangat sakit hati

2009-08-01T19:50:00.002+08:00

For those who don't know, TODAY, 1st of August is my birthday. This is the most sad birthday of mine. No family, no wish from some people that I think they SHOULD wish me, I feel I am less value. ='(( But trillions of thanks for those who wish me, thanks a lot. =') My mum gave me 'a friend' to keep accompany me at Gombak here. Thanks Ibu. Muahkss :* It's almost 8pm and I don't expect anymore wishes for me. Thanks to everyone*sarcastically*(yang berkenaan sahaja)

Alhamdulillah

2009-07-18T23:50:00.003+08:00

I know I've been ranting a lot these past few days. OK. This is a quick info for everyone. Alhamdulillah I managed to change my Saturday class to Wednesday night. Alhamdulillah I can handle all my lectures except one which is my Electric Circuit lecture but I won't blame anyone. I have to work harder on it and I can do it. Ganbatte, Farah. =) I can say I'm doing better and getting better. Alhamdulillah. Trillions of thanks to my mum, my aunties (Mak Long and Mak Cu), my babes(Nad, Fina, Fifi etc) for helping me. I'm so lucky to have u guys around me =') I'm at home right now and I shouldn't spend a lot of times in front of my laptop. I should have some conversation and chit chat with my mum. So bye2 people. See ya! =D

IIUM GOMBAK again..

2009-07-12T15:18:00.002+08:00

I cry again for a countless time on my praying mat. I cry to Allah. Asking Him to make my journey easier. I have class on Saturday. Perfect. Now I can see in my head my family, my weekend with family, my birthday with family are going far away from me. How can I possibly not to cry? Tell me, people. How times change everything.

I cry again. I got a room per person which means I'm staying alone all by myself. I don't like being alone. How a place changes everything.

For you it may be nothing but it is everything to me. Is there any other ways for me to escape from facing all these obstacles? I always dream that my mum will suddenly appear out my door and take me away.

Ya Allah, please make my journey easier. Amin.

IIUM GOMBAK

2009-07-10T22:01:00.002+08:00

Saya mahu pulang!!!!!!!!!!

Tekanan yang melampau-lampau!!!

Ibu, take me home please ='((

P/S: Lagu nie tkde kene-mengena dgn saya. Hanay untuk hiburan :)

Michael Jackson

2009-06-29T20:28:00.003+08:00

Both are my favourite songs from Michael Jackson. =)

Me

2009-06-25T13:49:00.002+08:00

"Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal but there never gonna go away"

Duh. This line is taken from No Love by Simple Plan. This line explains me THE BEST. I forgive people. In fact, I can easily forgive people because I always realise people is not perfect. People makes mistakes, I also make mistakes but I hardly forget what she/he has done to me. I'm not holding a grudge or having revenge or what so ever but it just it, what ever happend to me, I can barely forget it. I can be more careful in future, right? I mean I won't let things that hurted me happen to me again in future.

p/s: Yes. I am sensitive. In fact, I'm sooooo senstive.

God, let me live my holidays well. Ameen!

Anger

2009-06-17T14:38:00.002+08:00

I was in a hard situation these past few days. I was mad. I wrote everything in my blog. Everyone could see my anger. I regret so much for letting my anger all out. I'm sorry to everyone and deeply sorry for that. I tried to control my anger but it was out of control. I usually let my anger out in my blog but I know it is bad because I definitely humiliated people who made me angry. Once again I'm truly sorry and I'll make sure this thing won't happen again in future. I'm OK now and better now =)

Semoga Allah memberikan kesabaran yang tinggi kepadaku. Aminn.

Lyrics

2009-06-11T23:36:00.002+08:00

Place: At home
Modd: So pissed off
Listening to: Gives You Hell - The All American Rejects

When you see my face

Hope it gives you hell

When you walk my way

Hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well

Then he's a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me

You can take back your memories they're no good to me

And here's all your lies,

You can look me in my eyes

With that sad sad look that you wear so well

Then you're the fool, I'm just as well

Place: In the room.

Mood: Sad and almost cry.

Listening to: You Found Me - The Fray

Where were you

When everything was falling apart

When all my days were spent by the telephone

Never ring and all I needed was a call

Never came to the corner of first and only star

I've been calling

For years and years and years and years

And you've never left me messages

Never send me no letters

Why'd you have to wait

To find me to find me

p/s: These lyrics reflect how I feel. Nothing more. Someone drive me to a better place, please =(

Pissed Off

2009-06-11T23:04:00.003+08:00

First and foremost, I'm freakin 20 YEARS OLD. I'm no longer 2 YEARS OLD la, man and woman!

Secondly, why are both of you so DAMN HARSH???????!!!!!!!

Thirdly, why are you, man, LOOKING DOWN ON ME????????

Fourthly, I'm HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fithly, why are you woman NEVER ASK WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME INSTEAD OF SCOLDING AND CURSING ME???!!!

Six, both of you PISSING ME OFF!!!!!!

but...

I CAN'T HATE BOTH OF YOU.

I DON'T WANT HATE BOTH OF YOU.

In the end, I have to swallow everything you are doing to me because of my decision.

p/s to myself: P-A-T-I-E-N-T >.<

2009-06-02T22:57:00.002+08:00

Oh people, I'm kinda bored at home right now but not-so-bored la. Haha. Yet, I'm not in the mood to update my blog. I'm hibernating actually. Hehe.
Will update my blog soon when I'm in the mood to do so. Or not. Hahaha. Ah! I don't care. No one's read my blog afterall. My blog is not an international blog like my friend's blog afterall. =p

Happy Mothers Day

2009-05-10T15:30:00.004+08:00

Happy mothers day, Ibu.

I don't have to say I love you because I told you like a trillions time before and I believe that you know that too.

I always wonder how my life would be without you and I don't think I can live without you.

I made my very soecial psot for you during your birthday. I don't have any more words to say.

I called you yesterday at 1 am to wish you Happy Mothers Day and I told you again that I love you so much. I don't have any other words to say Ibu because you have known everything that I want you to know.

Sorry lah kalau Farah asyik call Ibu je dalam satu hari. Farah lebih suke berbual dgn Ibu drpd org lain. =)

No special but the sincerity

2009-05-09T16:09:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
Aku bersyukur kerana dipertemukan dengan mereka.

Kau telah memberiku yang terbaik.

Tiada yang lebih baik daripada mereka.

Merekalah yang memanduku ke jalanMu Ya Tuhanku.

Ya Allah,

Kekalkanlah persahabatan kami sehingga ke akhir hayat.

Rahmatilah kami.

Bantulah kami mengharung hari- hari yang penuh dugaan.

Jauhkanlah perasaan hasad dengki antara kami.

Tanamkan kasih-sayang didalam hati kami.

It's not that I don't cherish my other friends but all in all, these three sexy girls mean a lot to me. I love them. They always here with me. They never push me away. Never. They know what is the meaning of friendship. They laugh with me and cry with me. Yet, the most impostant is, they trust me! =') It's hard to give your trust to someone else. I know. They correct my mistakes, remind me when I idle, they share their opinions, they listen to my opnions, and the biggest thing is THEY LOVE ME. It's hard for me to believe people loves me but these three people are exceptional, I believe them with all my heart. It's a common thing if we fight but I can say we rarely fight. We do so much give and take. We really appreciate the moments that we have so we don't regret in future.

Guys, you do know I love you guys soooooooo muccchhhhhhh!!!!

Never push me away from your life. I don't know how my life would be without three of you..

P/S: tktau la kenapa tibe2 nak buat post mcm nie. sbb kite nk bagi tahu korg yg kite syg korg sgt2 kot.post nie maybe tkde special mane pun tpi kite ikhlas mase tulis post nie. hehe

Short but hidden

2009-05-08T17:16:00.002+08:00

I'm afraid.

My fear.

I just can't get over it.

You.

You all.

Hurt me.

I hurt.

I cry.

I'm sad.

I'm pathetic.

I kill you.

I want.

I can't.

Why?

Am I bad?

Am I not enough to be part of it?

I positive.

I can't again.

Too many.

I can't.

I cry.

I want.

I did.

I want to rid you.

I care about you.

Even for a while.

You were once in my life.

It's not complicated.

I'm not asking more.

I friend.

You foe.

You fool.

This is all foll.

I ask.

What should I do?

I hate you.

I can't.

Let it be.

Be the way you want.

I will.

One day you will know.

What goes around comes around.

Karma.

I believe.

You too.

You don't do what you belive.

It's funny.

Cupcakes, Cakes, Brownies at Batu Pahat and Muar

2009-05-07T18:12:00.005+08:00

These cute cupcakes and cakes made by my auntie. She attended a course at Johor Bahru. I'm actually helping her promoting her bussiness. We take order online and we also have delivery services. For the time being, delivery services are limited in Muar and Batu Pahat only. :)

We have a lot more. Please fell free to ask. We can also print your picture at the top of the cupcakes if you want. For birthday party, for anything you want. The price is affordable. I guarantee you. :D

Beli beli beli beli....

To My Nate Archibald

2009-04-27T15:06:00.004+08:00

She is Nur Nadiah Bt Samsuri. To be truth, first I saw her, I felt nothing but after a while I said to my self, "oh man, she has something. I must be her friends." So I throwed a smile and hye-d her. Well she replied me but not as friendly as I was but I didn't mind because it happens to me all the time. After a few hye and hello thingy, we started become friends.

Babe,

I'm going to meet you soon, insyAllah. Pray for me ok. I'll pray for the best for you here. I wanted to write a long post but I'll keep it for other events like your birthday, maybe? Hehe. I don't know what else to say, Good luck! Live your life well. Don't you dare to forget me! I'm warning you. Take care my dear friend ='(

I'll be missing nadiah BFF is now online. I'll be missing ur msg Paien!! Saje je. Boring. Hehe. I'll be missing Nur Nadiah wrote on your wall. I'll be missing Nur Nadiah made a comment about your activity. I'll be missing Nur Nadiah made a comment on a photo of you. Wahhh!!! So much more babe!!!! I know you can't get online as frequent as now cause you'll be damn busy with your new environment and hard subjects in short sem but believe me, you're going to make it. I know you will. Have faith in yourself eh syg? Please text whenever you are free. I can text you right if I have anyting to say?

Lots of love,

your Serena VanDerWoodsen

Short But Sweet!

2009-04-26T16:43:00.003+08:00

I met RYUNK just now. Oh, I mean only Teya and Adibah. It was a short meeting but sweet. I met them at Wendy's at Jaya One at 3 pm. Why did i say short? Because they want to go to MidValley at 4 pm, so we only had 1 hour. Like always, camwhoring session. Hehe. Let pictures explain everything ya ;-)

I'll put here one conservation between me and them. My laugh burst.

Me: One vanilla fudge, please.

*at table*

Teya: Lorh. Macam santan je vanilla fudge nie.*joking*

Me and Diba: *Laugh*

Oh. All these pictures must be credited to Teya because she was the one who set the camera eventhough it is my camera.

Dibah's boyfriend.

I was looking at Dibah while she was talking to Teya. *candid*

Me loves her and She loves me.

Farah, Altanteya, Diba dibot.

*crazy*

A Few About Me Right Now

2009-04-26T16:33:00.004+08:00

I am real lazy right now.

I think I'm putting on weight due to my laziness

I'm currently not so into taking pictures ecpecially my pictures because I have problem with my eyes. I'll upload how my eyes look like.

I listen to Katy Perry - Thinking of You over and over over and over.

My life is so miserable.

I am inferior.

I'm lack of confidence. A lot of confidence.

What happen? I don't know. Guide me to the right path, please...

is that really my eyes look like??? OMG! kenapa kecil sgt??? almost in all pictures my eyes look like that. don't tell me my eyes is getting smaller.

Book Fair

2009-04-26T12:38:00.004+08:00

I went to PWTC yesterday with Nad, Fina, and Madi.

I bought 7 books and it cost me less than RM 150. What a suprise!

Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom - RM 26.91
Can You Keep A Secret by Sophie Kinsella - RM 32.31
3 Motivation Books by Dr. HM Tuah - RM 11.00
Dato' Onn Jaafar by Kamdi Bin Kamil - RM 22.00
Pesanan Untuk Orang Berdosa by Dr. 'Aidh bin Abdullah Al-Qarni - RM 18.00
---------------
RM 110.22

Worth It! I felt so happy with the trip. It was a blast!
=)

Happy Birthday, Ibu

2009-04-22T11:50:00.004+08:00

Every single day with her, I feel so blessed.

My life fills with contentment everytime she is around.

My sorrow days can be treated only by her.

She is my heart.

She is my everything.

She is my smile.

She is my tears.

She is my laughters.

She is my spirit.

She is my BFF.

I love her. I love her. I love her.

Ibu, as I write this post for you my tears roll down. I can't explain my feelings. I don't know whether I'm sad or I'm too happy. You are moving to anothep stage further in your life, you are getting older. I'm so afraid with that fact actually. I don't want you to leave me. I'm totally fine with you by myside. Yet, whatever it is, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,Ibu. May Allah bless you, May He grant you paradise in Hereafter for your kindness and for your loving towards me and other siblings.

No more words, phrases, or qoutes can explain how much I love you. I really mean it when I say I love you because I do love you. I don't think your position in my heart can be stolen. I will always be your baby, Ibu, eventhough you have an expectation for me to grow up a little bit. Hehe. I like being your baby. Ibu, for all this while, I always want to say this. Trillions of thanks to you for taking care of me for 20 years. I do grow up, kn Ibu? I'm 20 now. Thanks for protecting for all this while. Thanks for feeding me. Thanks for the cook. Thanks for picking me up at PJ. Thanks for driving me back to PJ. Thanks for calling me everyday as I will definitely going mental if I don't hear your voice in a day. Thanks for hugging me as your hugs make me feel so warm. Thanks for always cheering me up. Thanks for worrying about my health. Thanks for your patient towards my behaviour. Thanks for being an atm machine for me during shopping time. Hehe. Thanks for supporting me. Thanks for everything! Too many too mention. I won't let any single moment with you past without saying thanks and make you sad as time moves really fast.
I have nothing to give you but my doa will always accompany you every single minute. Every single minute I ask Allah to grant you a good health, grant you patient, grant you kindness, protect you from any disasters and harms and so far I guess, Allah answers my prayers. Thank you Allah for answering my prayers

Ibu, live your life well. I always want you to be happy. Remember one thing, I am here for you, anytime,anywhere you need me.
*tears*

A message from a girl

2009-04-20T19:33:00.004+08:00

I am a girl. My friends are girls.

Girls are so emotional. Sometimes they cannot control it. Unlike boys, they are emotional too, in their own way, but they know how to control it. They don't simply make enemy with their friends. This is so contradict with girls.

Girls are obsess too. They are too obsess untill they become stupid. I have a friend whose taking HS in UIA. Because of she is so into politic, she had made a very stupid article about hudud. People, everyone has their own opinion on politics but hudud, it's Allah's Law. It's clearly stated in Al- Quran. We,as a muslim cannot reject Allah's law but she obviously rejects Allah's law.

There are two parts in obsess. Another one is obsess with their boyfriends. OK. I think this part going to have a longgg explaination. From what I've seen, girls nowadays have in minds that not having a boyfriend are ABNORMAL. wth! OK la, I'm find with this. Up to them, their opinions arn't it? But I'm not OK with this, you should spend all your time on your boyfriend once you have a boyfriend. Giler kah? Yet, when you're in trouble, then you find your girlfriends lah?? Another thing, why girls are so stupid when comes to boyfriend? They trust their boyfriends whole heartedly but not their girlfriends who they have known for years. They choose their boyfriends first before their girlfriends. I don't mind you spend time with your boyfriend, seriously, I don't, but can you spend your time equally with your girlfriends too? And please la, don't make enemy or leave your girlfriends just because of your boyfriend ask you to do so. That's is totally screwball.

Girls are sometimes too proud. Too proud of their beautifulness, cleverness and glamour-ness. Just because you are so famous and beautiful, it doens't give you a ticket to insult other people especially when it comes about someone's physical. THAT IS SO BAD! I may be a fat girl and I have a big ass but it doesn't mean I don't have any feelings. I am much much much better than you ok and I'm prettier too. That's is the major diffrence between you and me, you know. You gain confidence with insulting people around you but I gain confidence with my own.

Girls are too silly sometimes. Silly when you know in a hadith Rasullah s.a.w once said "Perempuan adalah orang yang paling senang untuk memasuki syurga" but they ignore all that and they follow their passion to become beautiful or to attract the opposite sex without following Allah's rules.

Just like what you said, THIS IS MY OPINION. Thank you.

2009-04-12T19:20:00.002+08:00

Saya tak suka orang yang gedik..

Saya tak suka orang yang mahukan perhatian..

Saya tak suka orang yan perasan..

Kesimpulannya,

SAYA TAK SUKA ORANG YANG GEDIK MACAM KAMU!!!

Uwargh!! Tekanan betul!!

Ibu Ibu Ibu

2009-04-08T12:23:00.003+08:00

Ibu..
Farah nak laptop dengan handphone baru!
I can't turn on my fucking laptop. Dah 2 days dah laptop nie tkblh on. Laptop nie memang nk kene. Tak nak patuh cakap tuan dia langsung.
Ibu, buy me a new one la! Huaa :'(
My handphone is another thing. Gile buruk. Scratches lagi, dalam memory card dah keluar ntah apa2 ntah. Macam virus je..
Oh Ibu, pity your daughter here...
Wahhh!!! I want new laptop and handphone!!

Syukur Part II

2009-04-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see

the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life

led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.' This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.Life Is a Gift Today.

Before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today

before you complain about life - Think of someone who died too early on this earth.

Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

Before you think of pointing the finger or condemning

another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on

your face and think: you're alive and still around

I like to touch about gratitude lately because I found that so many people forget about that. Allah mentioned in His ayat asking us to feel gratitude all the time. He mentioned that " Bersyukurlah kamu, sesungguhnya akan Ku tambah nikmatKu kepadamu."

2009-03-29T17:43:00.002+08:00

Hidup ini untuk bersyukur.

Bersyukur pada yang menyakiti dirimu kerana dialah orang yang menabahkan hatimu,

Bersyukur pada yang tidak mengendahkan dirimu kerana dialah memupuk berdikari,

Bersyukur paa yang menjatuhkan kamu kerana dia memperhebatkan aibiliti dirimu,

Bersyukur pada yang menyeksamu kerana dia yang menguji kesabaranmu,

Bersyukur dengan segala ujianNya kerana itu meningkatkan imanmu.

p/s: Words from Kak Hajar during my 19th birthday. It's a good reminder for me to be strong and always smile :)

I'm going mental

2009-03-29T17:27:00.002+08:00

It's so weird why people pushing me to have a boyfriend. In fact my own family is pushing me to have a boyfriend. I'm going mental. Parents who has children who own boyfriends ask their children to spend more time on family or use some very cliche word " You're too young to have boyfriend. Family comes first." but me? I sometimes feel sad. I really want to spend my time with my family, you know before I get marry one day. I don't ask anyone to understand this post because this post goes to only some people who related with me and this entry.
Thank you.

Earth Hour

2009-03-28T16:25:00.002+08:00

When I heard of this event in the radio, I was so excited and I said to myself I WILL definitely join this event. I told all my family to join this Earth Hour event. It's a world event. How can I possibly miss it, right? Furthermore, it is about saving our world from global warming. I am so much aware of global warming happening right now. Global warming will lead to serious consequences if we don't take any actions to prevent it. We do know that the using of electricity is one of the causes of global warming. I believe everyone knows this. Actually we should reduce the using of electricity everyday, not only today but electricty becomes our basic need in our lives everyday and every second. During this Earth Hour, we are ask to turn off the light for only an hour. Only one hour not one day! The effect may be a little but still.. At least we contribute, right?

My friend was making fun of me for joining this Eath Hour. He/she said no one knows whether we turn off the lights or not. I don't understand these kind of people. You took actions on what's happening on Gaza but why not this one? Because switching off lights has no connection with our religion? Hey, Allah ask us to take care of what He has grant us, He has grant us health, so we have to take a good care of our health, Allah also grant us this world so have to take a great care of this world. Without this world where are we going to live? Marikh? Pluto? Please la people. Sorry for saying this. We all know about what's happening in Gaza. We can't go there to jihad with them so the least we can do is boycotting the products of Israel. I was drowned with messages before telling me to boycott this and that product. I know it's hard, I know. My madam once said if you can't boycott all, don't leave all. At least boycott what you can. Yet, from my observation, boycotting wave only succeed in 1 month and after that there's no more boycotting. I can see. Lepak-ing at fast food restraunts as if nothing happened. I don't blame anyone and I'm not talking about other people only, it may be me is the person I'm talking about. OK. Boycotting is not my major point here. While you still living in this world, why don't you contribute a little. It's not that hard. About this Eath Hour, it is just an hour. I'm not begging you to do so and I WON'T. Up to you. You can think and you are big enough to take care of yourself and think.

Congrats

2009-03-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

I know it's realll late but better late than never huh. Huhu.
BIG CONGRATS to my sister, Ezzah for her SPM result.. Do better next time and you'll be in a new life. It's totally a new life. Be prepared!
Second to all my friends like Nad, Fina, Syak etc for your final result. Congrats weh.. :)
Lastly, to Daniel for getting 90% in his Math exam. Haha. I was told by my sister that he cried all night long before the examination day because he was too worried he couldn't answer the questions. So he studied all night with my mum and the result was so satisfying. Allah Maha Besar. He grant our dua, he give victory to those who strive. Alhamdulillah. Note here, Daniel is in standard 1 ok, means he is 7 years old.

Congrats everyone and not forget, CONGRATS TO MYSELF too =)

Blog

2009-03-27T19:19:00.003+08:00

Let me start.
I love blogging. I started to have my own blog when I read my friends's blog, Syaza. I was so attracted to blog since I read hers. So I decided to create my own blog. I started my blogging at Friendster's blog and after a while I moved to blogspot and still using it till now. Before, the first web I would check if I get online is my blog but not now anymore. Sometimes I wonder if am I not interested anymore in blogging and if yes then I should delete my blog. Yet, when my mind comes about that, I would feel sad. I love blogging, I love being one of the bloggers and of course I love my blog. Maybe I don't have so much idea what to write on my blog and if I have the idea, I maybe cannot explain more about it so I would save to draft after I type 2 or 3 lines.
I know it is just a few of them who read my blog. My blog is not interesting to read, I know. But I could really express what I feel here, I could really be myself here. So people, keep reading my blog ya, and please be patient while I wait for my idea to come. Hehe. See you later on guys. Tadaa!! :)

Thanks

2009-03-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

I know. It's been ages huh since I post. I decided not to write anything until my result released. Now, I already knew my result. Alhamdulillah, I did well! In fact, so well. I really can smile you know.. I don't plan to have a long post because I'm not in the mood to do so. All I want to do right now is eat and eat and eat before I go back to UIA tomorrow.

Oh one more people, please pray for my success during my short sem and last semester in UIA. It's gonna be a tough semester for me but I will give my best =)

p/s: Thanks to my mum, family and friends who keep supporting me. Thank you so much! =')

My Handphone

2009-02-13T16:01:00.002+08:00

You have to look at my handphone now. My handphone doesn't look like a handphone anymore. I mean the scratches. I think I overuse it. That's why my phone became like that. The speaker doesn't functioning well and the screen too. In fact, I have a problem to charge my phone. I don't know whether it was my charger or my phone who has a problem but seriously sometimes I couldn't charge my phone. Haisyh. I used this phone almost two years. In two years,my mum has changed her phone twice and so my sister and my dad and I'm still using the same phone in two years. I seriously deserve a new handphone. Don't you think so? Hehe. Yet, I love this phone. It's in pink colour and my first 3G phone who has connected me and my family while I'm away.

If my mum allow me to change my handphone to a new one, I wanna buy the most expensive one because I know I won't change my phone as frequent as my other siblings. :p

Ibu V.2

2009-02-11T23:22:00.004+08:00

The Best Day

by Taylorswift

I'm five years old

It's getting cold

I've got a big coat on

I hear your laugh

And look up smiling at you

And run and run

At the pumpkin patch

The tractor rolls on

The sky is gold

I hug your legs and fall asleep

The whole way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall

I know that you're not scared of anything at all

Don't know if Snow White'shouse is near or far away

But I know that I had the best day

With you today

I'm thirteen now

And don't know how my friends

Could be so mean

I come crying

You hold me tight

And grab the keys

And you drive and drive

Until we've found a town

Far enough away

And we talk and window-shop

Until I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to

Now at school

I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you

Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay

But I know I had the best day

With you today

I have an excellent father

His strength is making me stronger

God smiles on my little brother

Inside and out

He's better than nothing

I grew up in a pretty house

And I had space to run

And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three

You set up a paint set in the kitchen And you're talking to me

It's the edge of princesses and pirate ships

And the seven dwarves

Daddy's smart And you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why all the treeschange in the fall And you were on my side

Even when I was wrong And I love you for giving me your eyes

Staying back and watching me shine And I didn't know if you knew

So I'm taking this chance to say

That I had the best day

With you today

I don't need to wait for your birthday or until Mother's Day to arrive to say all these things that I'm gonna say right now. I learned that while we have time say what we wanna say, we should say it without waiting for the right time because maybe the right time will never come. So hear me, Ibu.

Only God knows how much I love you. You're the queen of my heart. For all the things that you have done for me and sacrificed for me, will be rewarded by Allah. Thanks for everything, Ibu. Thanks for buying me stuffs that I don't really need. Thanks for scolded me for not studying. Thanks for scolded me for I wasted you money. I'm not being sarcastic. It's the truth. Sometimes you are harsh but I know for my own good. Only God knows how bad I felt when I made you mad. That was the last thing I wanna do. I swear. So most of the time I choose to sacrifice my destiny or desire just to fulfill your desire. Only God knows how I miss u tremendously when I didn't meet you for like 2 weeks. Only God knows how much I miss you voice when I didn't talk to you for like 12 hours(that gives me a solid reason for calling you twice a day, Ibu). Hearing your voice will make me feel calm. I don't need you to pujuk me but I just need to hear dah makan or tengah buat apa because those words mean you care for me. What more I can say to tell how much you mean to me. YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME. I am so proud to have a very strong mummy. You are strong, Ibu. You fight your own feelings for the sake of your family. I solute you for that. I want the whole world to know that you are my mum and I love you so much.

2009-02-11T23:01:00.003+08:00

Sorry for disappointing you.

Sorry for not being a good friend to you.

Sorry because I'm not nice as you thought.

People keep telling me before to fight back when people did bad things to me. They said I'm being too nice. They told me to be strong and fight back.
Now, I fight back but they tell me to chill. They tell me not to fight back. They tell me to confront her. I seriously don't understand! I realized that I was being too nice before. People didn't hear my voice. They simply pijak my kepala. So for now,

I gonna fight back. Yes, I am.

Differences

2009-02-11T22:50:00.006+08:00

They are best friends. They came from the same place. They went to the same school. They received same knowledges from their teachers. They are both my friends.

but..

They have so much differences too.

I can see. Sorry for judging you but you judge me first.

2009-02-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah, aku terima qada' dan qadar yang telah Kau tentukan.
Aku tidak akan mengeluh.
Biarlah aku dipandang hina oleh manusia asal aku tidak hina di pandanganMu Ya Allah.
Biarlah aku hilang kawan kerana aku yakin hanya Engkau tempat aku bergantung dan menyerah diri.
Ya Allah, betapa cintanya aku kepada Engkau, Ya Allah walaupun cintaku tidak setanding cinta kekasihMu.
Akan aku buktikan.
Akan aku lalui ujian yang Engkau turunkan, Ya Allah kerana aku tahu Engkau menginginkanku untuk terus mengingatiMu, merintih kepadaMu dan sujud kepadaMu.
Biarlah aku hilang segala-galanya yang ada didunia asalkan aku tidak kehilangan cintaMu dan keluargaku.

La tahzan, Farah. Yakinlah pada Tuhan.

You Hurt Me

2009-02-08T13:32:00.004+08:00

YOU!
Yes! I'm talking to you! You know who you are.
Let me tell, YOU HURT ME! I hate you for that. You ignore me. I don't know what are my mistakes. If I did any mistakes, please tell me straight away. DO NOT IGNORE ME! You put me under pressure. You hurt me. You hurt people around me. You even hurt my family. You such a bitch! You judge me. I officially hate you. I tried to be patient with you but I can't be patient any longer. You such a jerk!

2009-02-03T22:39:00.003+08:00

What exactly happen to me?

I didn't update my blog for AGES!

I still love blogging and I still love my blog.

I have no idea what to write.

I am damn busy.

Later people.

Adibah Ali

2009-02-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, 3rd February 2009

dibott89: paink
farah alias: yes?
dibott89: amir ajak kuar valentine nie
farah alias: TIPUU!!!!!!!!!
farah alias: kalu tk msr awk da cite tdi
dibott89: Amir QuickGold: eh bdak ni..Amir QuickGold: hmm.. valentine day nnt kuar nk?
dibott89: psl aku x excited..buat ape aku nk cite dr td
dibott89: nie br ajak
farah alias: owh amir
farah alias: i tot AMIN
farah alias: hahahah
dibott89: kalo amin pon x excited
farah alias: hahahah
dibott89: n i said yes
farah alias: minami ajk bru excited la nie
farah alias: WHAT>????
dibott89: haaa yela
farah alias: hell no!!
dibott89: hell yes
dibott89: ala kuar kwn2 jek
farah alias: hell no dibah!
farah alias: still valentine!
farah alias: VALENTINE!
dibott89: get the hell of valentine
dibott89: die ajak arie tuh jek
dibott89: bukan nk smbt
dibott89: ahahha
farah alias: OMG!
farah alias: diba is going on a date!
farah alias: lalalala
farah alias: going to post it on my blog
farah alias: wait huh
farah alias: hehehe

Diba lied to me.. He reluctant to go out with anyone pun.. Ceh! I know her. She won't go out with anyone that she barely talk to. Diba2...

Three

2009-01-22T20:56:00.003+08:00

My life is sucks lately..

Being in this situation makes me think of my mum, my bersepah room, and a friend of mine, Fifi!

My mum, I know, she will support me in everything I do and everything I decide.

Fifi, SHE IS SO GOOD AT COMFORTING ME! Damn miss her!

And my room, of course, place where I can tune in my Hi-fi out loud, switch on the air-cond and SLEEP!

Ritma & Cinta : Hiburan Remaja

2009-01-17T22:18:00.004+08:00

Last thursday, I went to a forum 'Ritma & Cinta : Hiburan Remaja' by two panels who are Ust Hj Muhd and Ust Asri Ibrahim. This topic was interesting as I have a lot of questions before about one of my hobbies which is listening to the music.

First, why 'hiburan' is all about teenagers? Do you ever think about it? Before that, don't misunderstood with the word 'hiburan'. Some people has their hiburan with hearing azan, reciting Al-Quran, capturing nice views, reading books and others. But most teenagers now would prefer music as their entertainment and so do I. It's because teenagers have energy. Energy for surfing the internet for new music. Energy to go the concert. Energy to share music and view and opinions. Enrgy to conquer technology to get music.

They also explained that it is not wrong for us to hear music as long as it is allowed in Islam, we perform our daily prayers, we didn't neglect our responsibility etc. Like ust said ' Utamakan yang utama.' Ust Shapizan said once in BTQ class, everything that we do in life is considered as ibadah(IBADAH AM) as long as it is ALLOWED IN ISLAM and most important is we don't forget ' IBADAH KHAS'(like prayers,fasting,zakat). I have to mentioned here since some of my friends told me about some of nasyid songs nowadays. They said how can nasyid songs turn to be love songs, contained 'love' words, and sometimes talked about the beauteousness of women. The panels said, regardless of what kind of songs we listen, it doesn't matter as long as it educates. Don't misunderstood with the lyrics, people. Eventhough it is about love, it educates us to love in Islam way. You better listen to whole song and lyrics..

In the second round, Ust Asri told us that not to forget to bersyukur because we are still in peace. Allah said in Al-Quran, 'Sesiapa yang bersyukur akan nikmatKu,akan Aku tambah nikmatKu kepadanya.' So, don't forget to thanks Allah for what He has grant us.
Last but not least, we were entertained by Rabbani. They promoted their new album and the sang a few songs in that album. I could say I love Saksi song in that album.

Palestin..

2009-01-12T14:47:00.004+08:00

Jika kita di Malaysia hanya bermandikan hujan air(banjir) ataupun sekadar tanah runtuh, tetapi saudara kita diSANA bermandikan PELURU, BOM dan DARAH!

Ada yang mengatakan mereka bodoh, bodoh kerana melawan. Mereka tiada apa sedangkan pihak lawan mempunyai senjata yang lebih canggih. Mereka hanya mampu membaling batu dan kayu kearah pihak lawan. Tetapi tahukah anda, adalah wajib bagi mereka untuk mempertahankan diri mereka dengan apa sahaja yang mereka ada.

Tetapi mereka melawan dengan sepenuh berani!Tanpa ketakutan demi menegakkan agama yang tercinta. Mereka rela mati demi agama kerana mereka percaya Allah bersama dengan mereka. Tiada istilah gentar dijiwa mereka!!!

Mayat-mayat bergelimpangan..

Hati runtun melihat mereka. Melihat tangisan mereka, melihat negara mereka dijajah,melihat ahli keluarga mereka mati dibunuh,melihat tangisan mereka melihat anak-anak mereka dibunuh seperti binatang,melihat kebenaran bahawa tiada istilah tempat selamat bagi mereka. Hati ini sayu. Sungguh! Mata ini turut mengalirkan air mata. Tidak sanggup untuk menatap wajah ditelevisyen untuk melihat penderitaan engkau wahai saudara-saudaraku...

Aku akan lakukan apa yang termampu bagi membantumu. Janganlah engkau risau kerana Allah sentiasa bersama dengan engkau.Janganlah engkau risaukan musuh dalam selimut kerana Allah lebih Mengetahui untuk memberi balasan di Akirat kelak. Mereka terlupa akan HARI PEMBALASAN!Doaku sentiasa mengiringi dirimu.. Berjuanglah engkau disana! Aku sentiasa bersama dengan mu.

Wahai rakan-rakanku, adakah anda sedar apa yang sedang berlaku sekarang? Adakah anda sedar??? Apa yang sedang anda lakukan sekarang?Bersuka-ria?Bersuka-ria disaat saudara-saudara kita disana menghitung masa untuk dibunuh?Menyanyi?Menyanyi disaat saudara-saudara kita disana melaungkan takbir?Apa yang telah anda lakukan untuk membantu mereka?

Malulah anda disaat berhadapan dengan Allah kelak. Apakah yang akan anda jawab?

2008 and 2009

2009-01-03T20:11:00.004+08:00

I hope it's not to late to wish Happy New Year everyone!!! 2008.. Too many things happened. Failure, betrayal, success, I had crush on someone I shouldn't. What past is past. There's no need for me to rant or to regret. There are some lessons to be learn there..

This 2009, new missions, new life, and everything new... =D

Ya Allah, ampunilah segala dosaku, kedua ibu bapaku, ahli keluargaku, guru-guruku dan rakan-rakanku. Berkatilah hidup kami, lindungi kami daripada segala malapetaka,bencana dan musibah. Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, panjangkan usia kami, lindungi kami dan tetapkan kan kami pada jalan-Mu... Amin!!!!

P.E.A.C.E

2008-12-20T15:15:00.003+08:00

I can say I haven't read newspaper or watch news at television for ages. I've stopped doing that since I enter UIA. Lack of time, lack of televisions and too lazy buying the newspaper give me a lot of reasons for not doing those things. Yet, it doesn't mean I know nothing like economy crisis, Obama's plan to solve the economy crisis etc.
Actually, it's not the real reason why I don't do those things. To be exact, I'm scared to read newspaper because if you noticed, a lot of articles about war, fighting, death, murdering, killing, suicide and other negative things inside.. Man, it''s killing me. I love peace. Reading newspaper nowadays is like giving me a sign that there's no such things as peace in this world. I hate fighting, I hate to see people simply kill other people for their own sake. I don't feel safe any longer. I always want my family around because only then can me feel safe. God. Where has peace gone?????
I'm sad, I'm scared, I want peace!!! Maybe I need a farf ar away land which is free from violence.
Well, if you don't belive, read today's newspaper. You can see yourself how many people being murdered yesterday etc.

P/S: Pray to God everyone. Remember Allah!

P.E.A.C.E

Sorry..

2008-12-20T01:49:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry like a million times for not updating my blog.. I only get online during weekend but sometimes I do get online in computer lab. Hehe. Yet, too busy doing the programming thingy which means I couldn't reply comments at friendster or update any post here. Other than not having enough time, I have also problem with idea's'. Seem like the idea was stucked in my head. Urghh!!! Whatever...

Sorry you guys for not updating my blog. I do have idea but.... later ok. Hehe. Seriously. I don't have mood to write a post. I take 5 subjects this sem but it's like I'm taking 10 subjects. I'm tired! Phew!! I promise I'll be back anytime soon! =)

NEW BABE!

2008-12-10T01:12:00.004+08:00

See what my mum gave me last Saturday..

I'm so going to take a lot of pictures.. Thanks ibu!!

Hurt

2008-11-29T18:52:00.003+08:00

Do you know what can hurt me most?
When I view my friends's pages and saw that I'm at the second place of their top friends but the next day I view, my name will be the last one..
Do you know what can hurt me most?
When I view my friends's pages and saw that I'm in their top friends and the next day I view, I wasn't in the list anymore.
Do you know what can hurt me most?
When a friend of mine said that he/she will be here for me but words remain words.
Do you know what can hurt me most?
When friends of mine said that I'm her/his bestfriend but she/he doesn't really act like my bestfriend.
Do you know what can hurt me most?
Whe someone claim as a friend of mine but she/he doesn't say hye when we accidentally meet.

P/S: Lucky enough, thess things are not enough to make me cry. I only cry for three things which are MY RELIGION, MY FAMILY AND MY BEST BEST BEST FRIENDS. Thank you..

Fifth Sem

2008-11-28T22:39:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the not updating my blog guys. Well, I'm kinda busy and actually, I don't have idea what to write here. Hehe. This sem, I take 5 subjects as all known.

BASIC THEMES OF AL-QURAN

I got to say I love Madam Saoudah more but Ustz Shafizan is not that bad. He's funny. I like him. This subject is kind of boring to me because most of the topics, I've learned during form 4 and form 5 in PQS and SI. So, I'm sorry ustz if I sleep during your class. :p

PHYSICS 3

I've gone thrugh Physics 1 and Physics 2. The easiest will be Physics 2 which I passed that paper with flying colours and the hardest will be Physics 1. PHYSICS 3 IS ALL ABOUT ELECTRICAL AND CIRCUIT WHICH IS SOO BORRRRRINGGG. Luckily Madam Intan is a great lecturer. I just love her. She's lovely. She explains clearly about the concept. Thanks Madam. :)

MATH 3(CALCULUS)

I like Math 3 more than Math 2(precalculus). It's easier than Math 2. So far, I'm doing good with my Math 3 and I really hope it WILL be ok.

PHYSICS LAB 2

IT'S ALL ABOUT ELECTRICAL AND CIRCUIT!!! GOD, bless me.

COMPUTER 2

So far, this is my favourite subject. We learn programming. We have to deal with flow chart, coding, C++. I think I love it. Madam Nazreen is quite strict but I love her because she is a very good lecturer. She teaches me not to give up with the coding. :)

2008-11-17T16:33:00.001+08:00

I'm thinking of 'closing' my blog...

2008-11-17T16:01:00.001+08:00

p/s : PMS is not an excuse for you ok?!!!!!

Untitled

2008-11-14T21:31:00.003+08:00

I miss your touch..

I miss your kisses..

I miss your hugs..

I miss you..

I miss everything about you..

You make me happy..

Because you always happy..

I'm happy to see your laugh..

I'll be back next week..

I'll be back next week to hug you..

MY DANIELL!! :-*

SYAHIDDD!! SUPER COMELLL!! GOD, I MISS YOU! MUAHX!

KIKI!! HEHE..

SYAFIQ! enough Syafiq, ajak main tak nak, ambik gambar nak pulak. Betol la budak nie..

p/s : I'm so not crazy ok! But I really do miss them. I'm happy with them.. I feel like I'm a kid too. Haha. Tksedar diri btol..

2008-11-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

I'm in trouble..

I want my mum..

I hate I hate..

I want my mum..

I want my room..

p/s : My laptop is not available. That's why i rarely get online.

My 5th semester

2008-11-11T19:35:00.002+08:00

Oh My God! It's been a while.. Well, everyone knows I was quite busy with my exam, holidays, and new semester. Of course I couldn't get online during my exam weeks but I did actually. Hehe. But I didn't post anything because it will took some time if I blogging. Holidays! Yeah, I know. I should have post anything during my holidays, but I refused. I really wanted to have my break and holidays.. I've gone through bad days during my last sem so excuses accepted.
Nothing really happened during my holidays, just visiting families, hanging out with friends, cuti- cuti Malaysia and oh, aerobic classes.
I'm in new semester. I have new roomates which is mean no more retarded primate. Hehe. To be exact, I supposed to have 7 subjects this sem, eventually, I drop two subjects which is mean I have to extend another one sem. Luckily it just a short sem. So far everything is OK and I really hope everything will be OK.

My First Goodbye

2008-10-17T14:12:00.002+08:00

I could still remember my second class of Mathematic. I could still remember you came in the class and sat beside Fina. I could still remember u look gorgeous that day. I could still remember you said Hi to everyone but not me because I was far from you. I could still remember Leya told me that you’re Fifi, Omar’s girlfriend. I could still remember, the next day, I sat at the third row because I wanted to sit beside you and get to know you. I could still remember you threw a smile to me and said Hi! I could still remember how we suddenly talked about Simple Plan, Linkin Park, Friendster and blog. I could still remember I told you about my blog. I could still remember when I checked my blog you read my blog and leave comments. I could still remember I was so happy to see your comments at my blog. I could still remember I sent you a message and said thanks for reading my blog. I could still remember from that onward, I sat beside you at class and I text with you rottenly. I could still remember how close we are. I could still remember we had breakfast together with Omar at Pak Lang’s café. I could still remember one day you came my room and told me how big KC are. I could still remember when we had to sign up for our roommate for next sem, I offered you to be my roommate and you accept. I could still remember you slept at my room because we had Mathematic exam the next day. I could still remember we texted each other during holidays. I could still remember you told me you changed your course from engine to pharmacy. I could still remember you, me, Ika, Leya, Hani and Madi ate together at Secret Recipe. I could still remember you told me you got an offer to Al-Azhar and continue with Dentistry. I could still remember I felt tremendously sad. I could still remember I got a very very very bad result and I didn’t have anyone around me to turn to and I called you. I could still remember you ‘pujuk’ me and told me you would pick me up the next morning to have some fun. I could still remember you picked me up the next day and we headed to Sunway Pyramid to have ice-skating. I could still remember u turned back to UIA to pick Omar up and we brought Omar with us. I could still remember how stupid I was while playing ice-skating with you and Omar. I could still remember u hold my hand and we skate together. I could still remember we fell down in the middle of the court. Haha. I could still remember the first time I wished you on your birthday. I could still remember I gave you a T-shirt and you gave a very nice necklace. I could still remember how you liked my present. I could still remember we planned to go to Zoo and Petrosains together. I could still remember when you YM with me and told me you’re going to Al-Azhar this 17th of October. I could still remember you came last Monday to pick me and have some fun at Cosmo. I could still remember at last, we ended up hanging out at my room with your sister because of the ‘Pak Guard’ and the stupid curfew of UIA. I could still remember we ate Mc Donald together in my room. I could still remember the car incident and you were so ashamed about it. I could still remember I sent you to your car and I cried. I could still remember how sad I was and I couldn’t stop crying. I could still remember you sent me a message which said, ”Salam..smoga anda dlm keadaan sihat sejahtera..sy, farahana mau pamitan..mlm ini at 9pm sy akn berangkat..doakn sy slmt pergi and plg..gdlak n all d bes kpd anda jg.wslm..”. I could still remember how sad I was and I felt like crying. I could still remember that was the last message you sent to me and I couldn’t be at airport to say goodbye to you because I have an exam for the next day.

NUR FARHANA ISMAIL. I LOVE YOU AND FRIENDS FOREVER. I WILL WAIT FOR YOU AND WE WILL MEET HERE. GOOD LUCK IN EVERYTHING YOU DO. I WILL PRAY FOR YOU. KEEP IN TOUCH :')

My Family

2008-10-17T14:03:00.003+08:00

Everyone knows I’ve never been away from my family. I’ve never been to hostel before. During school, if there was any camp that required us to sleep at school, I would join but my mum would come and sent me lunch and dinner as I don’t really eat hostel’s food. People said those students who got offers to boarding schools are clever but that word doesn’t influent me to leave my home. Next thing I knew, I got to further my study at Kolej Matrikulasi Johor which is situated at Tangkak (45 minutes from Muar). What surprised me, I didn’t cry when my parents left me. I just felt sad. My mum handed me Ferrero Rocher before she go. At that night, I couldn’t sleep because instead of I sleep, I cried. I was thinking of my mum. What were she doing by that time. How I appreciate my life when I live with my parents. Luckily, it was Tangkak. So I went home every week. Yes, every week. After 3 months, I got an offer from IIUM, PJ furthering my study in engineering. I accepted that offer and so my parents sent me to IIUM. It took 3 hours from Muar to arrive here. So we are separated with 3 hours of journey. here, I call my mum 3 times in a day, just to report, ask how things going at home, how’s my siblings and bla bla bla.

Things are like this. I couldn’t live without my family especially my lovely parents. I refuse to stay at other people’s house because my parents are not there. If I want to do something, I mean I really really want to, but if my parents don’t allow me to do so, I won’t do it even though I know I will end up with crying the whole day at my bed because I don’t want to hurt them. I still remember when I was forbidden by my mum to go to book fair at PWTC because I don’t have any friends to accompany me. I sat the whole night crying because I really wanted to go there and buy books. But, when I think again, I rather to sit at home feeling frustrated than going there without my mum permission. I am willing to sacrifice my study or eating time so I can help them. I’m willing to do ANYTHING for them. I will only feel safe whenever I’m with my parents. They are the safest driver ever. If I were given a choice, I wanted to do everything with parents beside me because I know they will protect in whatever situation and I wanted them to be one and the only drive because they are good drivers.

Another thing is my siblings. I have 4 siblings. I got to say they like to ‘menyakitkn hati’. Seriously. Always find anything to bring up fights with me. But I still love them. That makes them different. They never forget me and they always want me to go home so they can make me ‘sakit hati’. Haha. Yet, no matter what, I still love them because they make me happy!

That's the reason why I always want to go back home everyweek. That's the reason why I always feel homesick. That's the reason why I cry whenever I think of my family at home. That's the reason why I love my family :)

Raya 08

2008-10-14T14:22:00.003+08:00

I know it's too late for Raya post but I still wanna post it. I'm damn busy right now, exams and other things too so it explains why I didn't get online before.

I had a good Hari Raya with my family.

First raya, went back to Batu Pahat met Atok and Tok Wan. Still got duit raya. Hehe.

Second raya, went to open house of my mum's friend. In the evening, my dad's kids came to our house and had stew.

Third raya, my mum's family came to Muar. It was a blast!! :D

Fourth raya, my friends and my dad's family. My friends came in the morning. Only a few of them could make it and thanks to Dibah, Syera, Deen, Faiq, Hanan, Syahir, Mira, Asri, and Peeya for coming. Yet, my dad's clan, they came late, at Maghrib! Man, it's time for me to perform prayer and recites Al-Quran. How could they came at that time? Yet, I don't wanna be a rude daughter, so I perform my prayer and immediately help my mum in front. Haisyhh. At 8.00pm, Deen came to my house and ask to 'beraya' with them so I went with them. Went to Syera and Nurin houses till 11.30pm. It was good to see us sitting together and share stories.

My big family :)

(Nadiah is missing there. No matter what, we still love you, Nadiah)

Me and Daniel on the first Hari Raya

In the car on our way back to Batu Pahat.

Believe or not they are all my cousins :D

My sister, Mak Cu and Kak Huda

2008-10-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

Currently at home celebrating Hari Raya with my family. Too many things to update but later.. By the way,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE!! :-D

Raya Mood!

2008-09-22T11:24:00.003+08:00

Currently listening to :

Menjelang Hari Raya, Seloka Hari Raya, Dendang Perantau, Suasana Hari Raya, Ku Pohon Restu Ayah Bonda.

Mood:

Nk rayaaaaaa!!!!! I miss my parents and my kecohh siblingsss!!!!!!!

Counting Days.. I mentioned right that I'm going back to Johor this Thursday, it means 3 more days to go. :D :D :D

Counting Days

2008-09-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

5 more days....

Happy :-D

2008-09-20T12:57:00.002+08:00

I'm so busy people. Haha. Who cares isn't it? But up to me la, this my blog. Hahaha
So many assignments to be done, so many quizzes to be done. Haisyhh!!

Yesterday, I was so happy..
I've submitted my assignmnts and done my quiz. And then, I went out with my bestest friends, Nad and Fina. Got a happy news. I'm going back to Muar not this Friday, but Thursday at 6pm. Hahaha. Earlier than planned. We went to the bazaar somewhere at Kota Raya. We bought a lot of fooddssss.. We break our fast together. We went to terawikh together. A t night, my familiato called me ( not call but 3G with me). So happy to see my parents's faces and my siblings's faces too.
Today, I'm happy. Why am I happy? Because I talked to my cousin at Aussie :-)

Enough reasons to feel happy.... Family and friends :-D

To- do- list

2008-09-17T18:13:00.003+08:00

17th of Sept - 2 assignments to submit, 3 quizzes

18th of Sept - 4 assingments to submit, 1 quiz

19th of Sept - Study, Study and study for tomorrow quiz

20th of Sept - Big quiz

21th of Sept - 1 quiz

25th of Sept - Math Quiz

26th of Sept - Going back for Hari Rayaaaaa!!!!!!!!! :D

I miss them!

2008-09-14T21:09:00.005+08:00

Place : At my room ( Alone in my room)

Time : 9.10pm

Mood : I miss them so muchhhh!!!!

God!! Don't take them away from me...

Something to rant

2008-09-13T23:21:00.004+08:00

I've been feeling tremendously sad since yesterday. I miss my parents and family very much. To tell the truth, I cannot live without them. They are my pillar of strength. If God didn't grant me with wealth, it's ok by me as long as I have my family around. Family here means my whole big family, not only my parents and siblings but of course, the most important are my preants and my siblings. I love them sooooo muchhhhh!!!! Though my siblings like to give troubles to me and always menyakitkn hati, I still love them!!!

Let's stop all this rambling.

All I want to say here how much my family means to me. Like I said, I've been feeling tremendously sad since yesterday, in fact I cried yesterday because I miss my mummy damn much( how manje I am huh? huhu). You may say that I've already been staying here almost one year without my family but do you know that I call my mum three times a day and sometimes more? She will knows everything that I'm doing. If I'm planning to go out, I will let her know. It's important for my mum to know where am I going because I wil feel safe as I don't lie and hide anything from her. OK. Let's start ranting. I hate it when I've to buy barang-barang dapur without my mum because I don't know which one to choose and I tend to take the most expensive and unneeded one. I hate to go for shopping or anywhere by bus or taxi because usually my mum would drive and fetch me to the shopping mall. I also hate to go for shopping without my mum because I have to budget on what I wanna buy.
For this fasting month, I hate to sahur alone and I only have bread or biscuit to eat as we are not allowed to cook in our room( too lazy to go downstair to buy something). I hate to break the fast without my kecohh siblings and my lovely parents. I hate thatttt!!!!!! I hate to be disturbed by some person while I was reading as my parents know how to respect my privacy. I hate to do my laundry on my own as my mum used to help me in laundry. I hate the fact that I can't go to aerobic and stay in my 'little lovely room'. I hate the fact that I can't go out everyday because I'm stucked in stupid curfew here. Oh God! Why??
It ain't means that I didn't enjoy my times with my friends. I do enjoy especially with my best friend but it's different. My friends also stucked in the same situation as mine and my friends couldn't cook for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ibu, nk balik... :'(

Bubble

2008-09-11T13:46:00.005+08:00

Bubble hypnotizing me..

Seeing bubble flying make me so happy..

Seeing the color of the bubble mesmerizing me..

I feel so free whenever I glance at bubble..

I feel contented..

I wanna in the bubble, please..

So it will take me away and fly up high to the sky..

I can enjoy every single creatures..

I can laugh as much as I want..

No more tears..

No more scared

I don't have to be afraid with anything..

People won't hurt me..

I won't hurt people either..

I don't have to deal with world iniquity

Please bubble,

don't leave me..

don't burst..

I wanna ride you to the sky..

Please take me away..

And fly me to a better place..

2008-09-10T16:47:00.004+08:00

I feel so bad for rivaling her.

Seriously. I feel soooo bad.

But tell me people.

What should I do? She rivals me and my friends.

I'm angry till now.

I wish I could slap her face but I'm not like her.

I wish I could argue with her but I'm not like her.

Let it be.

Allah will repay..

Remember, what goes around comes around.

I don't have any respect for you.

A Message for Retarded Primate...

2008-09-09T19:10:00.003+08:00

Life IS unfair.
Some are beautiful, some are not.
Some are clever, some are not-so-clever.
Some are rich, some are poor.
Some are so talented and some are not.
Sometimes you study so hard yet,the result still sucks compared to thosee who didn't study as hard as us.
It's not that I didn't bersyukur for what God has given to me but it's about the 'lucky people.'
Don't you realize it's a dugaan from Allah by giving you goods?
And you SHOULD NOT boasts!!!!!
It's wrong and it is sins.
You also cannot down grade other people just because of you are above them.
It is also not a ticket for you to say that YOU'RE GOOOODDD.......
Shame on you...

Allah Maha Adil. I believe that. Allah is always true. He never lie to His slaves.

p/s: This message is specially goes to retarded primate. Why la you always susah kan us????

polluted mind

this is super junior and k-pop related.

Let's not get despair, Farah

bye 2011, hello 2012

i think i am ....

final is coming

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, Eunhyuk

erasing you from my friends list because i'm so tired

now u can judge me

can you accept me as who I am ; can you stop comparing me to others

i am not stupid to commit suicide

A letter to my mom

i don't know i can write

Where has the sanity gone?

Can I call this drabbles of my 2010 and 2011?

#sorrysuperjunior

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